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Viv Li

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Belgium, China

Chinese Mandarin

I Don't Feel At Home Anywhere Anymore

我在家中渐渐消失

2020
Asian Premiere 亚洲首映

Thirty-year-old Viv Li is studying art in Belgium and hasn’t lived in her native China for ten years. During the Christmas holidays, she pays a nine-day visit to her family in Beijing, where it soon becomes clear that she feels like an outsider. Her grandmother thinks she’s too thin, her uncle wants to know what she actually does for work, and a meeting with her ex-boyfriend causes grief. Political discussions reveal a deep information gap.

Losing your roots is a painful process, Li shows, though it has its humorous moments. In brief, unsubtitled scenes (the dialogue is summarized in titles above), this short film portrays the discomfort of the bird that has flown but temporarily returns to the nest. Li misses Beijing when she’s not there, but it drives her crazy if she stays there too long—the cruel fate of the migrant, subtly captured in modest but telling scenes. When Li returns to her home in Belgium, the alienation is complete.

现年三十岁的李蔚然正在比利时学习艺术,她已经有十年没有回过中国了。趁着圣诞假期,她计划了一次九天的回国之旅,去北京探望她的家人。很快她就发现自己像一个局外者了。奶奶觉得她太瘦了,叔叔想要了解她做什么工作谋生的,和前男友的见面还带回了伤心的情感。甚至从政治讨论中便能展现一个巨大的信息鸿沟。



导演展示了失去人的根这一痛苦的过程,即便影片中包含许多幽默的时刻。简单来说,这部短片描绘一只飞走的鸟暂时回到笼里的不适。当她不在北京时,十分想念它;一旦待太久了又让她十分烦躁。这归结于异乡者的残酷命运。当导演回到她比利时的家中时,这种隔离感才真正完整体现。

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